"Try to Forget..."

Try to forget the pain you’ve caused.
How I found you, but lost.
Try to forget and wipe the tears I’ve shed
Erase the sweet words, for you, I’ve said

Try to forget the way you made my heart skip
And how it will just rip
Try to forget how your hand felt
And how your presence made me melt

Try to forget your soft cheek
With the warmth I still seek
Try to forget the times you held me
Its time for me to be free

Try to forget the times you made me smile
The happiness I felt for that while
Try to forget that in you I felt this security
A safety and comfort that took me away from reality

Try to forget the laughs we shared
But not the fact that, for you, I loved and cared
Try to forget that my only regret
Is forgetting to forget.

Why no one ever said Love was easy... cause its not

To be honest love is simple... people just complicate it. People are just complicated animals, which is ironic because we may be the only ones capable of it.

Thus another complicated period of my love-lifelessness.

Love isn't logical. No matter how much you'll try, you'll never explain it. No matter how many times you question it there's no actuall answer. That's why its so amazing and beautiful and painful. It's out of our control. Its to profoundly simple to be put in words.

The closes we could ever come up with is "I Love You" and people can still question that. They wouldn't be able to accept it. They can't fathom that someone could actually care for them and love them so much. They don't see themselves worthy enough to be loved by another. They deny that its actual genuine love. They just can't believe that they could be so important to someone.

They've been hurt, left and disappointed enough to not want to risk it again. Fear of intamacy takes over and the moment they see a chance of being hurt they run away. They trap themselves in their own world while others struggle to be apart of them.

People want to reach out and be with the person they love and let them know that they are loved. They want them to know that they are worth loving and why. They want them to know that they could never disappoint them. They want them to know that someone will always be there, even if you tell them to leave. They want them to know that another human being cares that you're happy, well and on this earth. They want you to know that there's another reason why you exists and its because you are loved by another.

Isn't that simple?

New...

Today is a new day of a new year!

I know it isn't exactly the very start, but its better than not actually writing anything. I'm a little late, admit that. I'm sorry. I just havn't been writing much because there isn't anything to write about.

Its been a stready start. It hasn't been the best, but it hasn't been that bad. There hasn't been any major disasters in my life. Nothing completely unbelievable happened. Its just been a pretty good.

The best thing about all of this is that I have more friends now than in the pass years. I've never been so welcomed before. I feel very comfortable and accepted by great people. My relationship with my family has only improved. I'm closer to my grandparents now and even though my mom is in another country, we still chat and get along. I'm glad I didn't start the year with cutting any ties.

I'll freely admit. It hasn't been my best school year concerning my grades. I havn't been concentrating. My priorities have been really mixed up and I'm not as passionate as I was last school year.